Saturday, November 12, 2011
Little things have been happening that make me angry. The kind of angry that that make me want to scream until my eyes pop out of my head.
You know like a momma bear defending her cubs. Only I have God telling me take a deep breath and learn. My instincts have never been so at war with my faith in God.
Carter has been having nightmares about kids making fun of him, telling others not to play with him. He is hurt. I am hurting for him. I wish I could trade places with him so bad. Why do people see the differences and not the pureness of Carter. he is the most fascinating most loyal, loving child. I want everyone to see what I see. '
The part of me that is not in denial says "this is going to happen, he will be different" but my heart says "he loves God and people, he has come so far...why? why be hurtful?"
So the leason I have learned in being Carter and Colemans mom is; love others, don't look at the difference but the commonalities. You kids see you. Your kids mimic you. Love.
"A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another. John 13:34”
and the leason to myself...“If you love those who love you (or my son), what benefit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to get back the same amount. But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.