Saturday, February 27, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
You know when your driving early on a cold foggy morning. You squint your eyes to stay focused and your fingers are cold. You may use fog lights or the defrost but you still can't see. I have felt like this for a while. I am walking and talking and doing my job but Im disconnected. Not depressed or psychotic just at arms legnth with my emotions, people and most painfully , God. Why do we shut out the ones we love the most? Why can't talk to the Father when it so easy, I feel nothing. We are hosting the senior girls for D- Now (deciple now) weekend and the message tonight was on loving ourselves. Why? Because we were created in His image, because He knew us before we were in our mothers womb, because we were fearfuly and wonderfully made. It was just the kick in the hiney I needed. God makes us all different for reasons we do not understand, or want. Thank you God for my uniqueness. If I was perfect, if I was content I would not need you.
I have some great men in life. My dad who is the best dad ever. He drove me to TN even though he had a busy day at work and needed to stay. He is also the best Grandpa to my boys. My Pop, is so great. He let me live with him while I was in college, and always encouraged me when I thought I couldn't do things. He loved my Nana well and prayed with her everyday. Then there is my husband David. We have been through a lot, he gets frustrated with me and I him but the cool thing is he makes me a better person. He wants the best for me and reins me in when I dream big (with my emotions). God couldn't have picked a better man for me. He loves crestridge like I do and understands a world many men do not. He is the best thing in my life. I saved the best for last. God IS the man. I am in love with him and he sustains me through times of anger, joy, unfeeling, confusion and loss of dreams I don't understand. I am lucky in love. many different love many different ages, but all a blessing on this valentines weekend.
Monday, February 1, 2010
So many things have changed in the last several months, My Nana died of cancer, Dr. Coppenger died at 100 years of age, Coleman started his growth hormones, I started keeping little Jessi after school, I got a dog and a cat we basically adopted a teenage boy Connor and so much else. I have had to adjust to so much, but I have been blessed 10 fold. My cup runneth over... God has given me so much to give myself too and so many people to love I feel joyful