You know when your driving early on a cold foggy morning. You squint your eyes to stay focused and your fingers are cold. You may use fog lights or the defrost but you still can't see. I have felt like this for a while. I am walking and talking and doing my job but Im disconnected. Not depressed or psychotic just at arms legnth with my emotions, people and most painfully , God. Why do we shut out the ones we love the most? Why can't talk to the Father when it so easy, I feel nothing. We are hosting the senior girls for D- Now (deciple now) weekend and the message tonight was on loving ourselves. Why? Because we were created in His image, because He knew us before we were in our mothers womb, because we were fearfuly and wonderfully made. It was just the kick in the hiney I needed. God makes us all different for reasons we do not understand, or want. Thank you God for my uniqueness. If I was perfect, if I was content I would not need you.